In hind site, this pregnancy faced, and overcame, obstacles. Her parents were initially worried about Zika after travel abroad. Then, there was a scare over genetics: a test showed a problem with XY chromosomes. However, good medical care, lots of tests, and strict prenatal care showed this baby was going to be healthy. And she was; perfect in every way, except for one. She got tangled in the cord.
The day after her expected due date and 36 hours before induction was to begin, something happened. There were no shockwaves or indications anything was wrong. No warning bells, whistles, or pain announced our own personal "9-11 Tragedy". She just slipped away... it took her mom several hours to realize the baby had been 'quiet' all afternoon and no amount of prodding or poking would arouse her. Not even the sound of her daddy's voice, something that she was already attuned and responsive to, would wake her. We didn't know it, but she was already gone...
At her bedtime, Sophie and I had prayed for Mommy and Noelle to be healthy, excited about finally meeting her the next day. After Sophie went to bed, I continued to pray for my daughter, praying hope against hope that this delivery would go smoothly. I experienced a period of grace, between the time I sent Dania and Eric off to the hospital, believing with my whole heart labor had started, until the call came from my daughter that rocked our perfect little world.
I now find refuge and true peace in the saying 'Don't think of the things you didn't get by praying; think of the countless blessings God gave you without asking.' All I have to do is look at the love, strength, and support Dania and Eric share, the sincere love and support of family and many, many friends, or look look at Sophie, whose limited knowledge of life and death have kept her immune to this tragedy for now. That is, in itself, a small blessing.
Yes, we've all been cheated out of what could have, should have been. Noelle Reese Edwards was greatly anticipated, loved, and accepted lock, stock, and barrel, unreservedly, by all of us. What we didn't realize was that God needed her more than we do. But, He promises to reunite us all one day. Until then, we know she is the delight of those that have gone before us...and, like them, will forever remain a part of all of our lives.
We love you.
Grandma
At her bedtime, Sophie and I had prayed for Mommy and Noelle to be healthy, excited about finally meeting her the next day. After Sophie went to bed, I continued to pray for my daughter, praying hope against hope that this delivery would go smoothly. I experienced a period of grace, between the time I sent Dania and Eric off to the hospital, believing with my whole heart labor had started, until the call came from my daughter that rocked our perfect little world.
I now find refuge and true peace in the saying 'Don't think of the things you didn't get by praying; think of the countless blessings God gave you without asking.' All I have to do is look at the love, strength, and support Dania and Eric share, the sincere love and support of family and many, many friends, or look look at Sophie, whose limited knowledge of life and death have kept her immune to this tragedy for now. That is, in itself, a small blessing.
Yes, we've all been cheated out of what could have, should have been. Noelle Reese Edwards was greatly anticipated, loved, and accepted lock, stock, and barrel, unreservedly, by all of us. What we didn't realize was that God needed her more than we do. But, He promises to reunite us all one day. Until then, we know she is the delight of those that have gone before us...and, like them, will forever remain a part of all of our lives.
We love you.
Grandma
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